Went Solo on that A$$, but he still the same.

The Bye and Bye has become my favorite place to frequent since the Big Move on my own again. As I get older I realize this moving often shit is for the birds. These aren't the old days of an aspiring dancer who would pick up and go on a whim, and pray for the best. Don't get me wrong, I will still travel anywhere, but there is something about having your roots planted and a place to call home at this age. Having a home base was always something I would beg my mom for. We moved constantly, and while it didn't seem like a big deal back then, I am seeing now in my 30's, just how affected I was (as with a number of other issues that have arisen quiet as it's kept) by the constant movement. I believe a home was the last thing she wanted to secure for us before she passed, and she did. I was proud of her in that moment (as with many others), even though weeks later she'd succumb to her illness, and I'd have to let the house go. She did everything for me that lady.

The last few weeks have probably been the hardest in a while, but honestly I don't regret having these hard moments because I needed to be reminded that I am resourceful. Reminded that my hustle game is real strong still. Reminded that I CAN DO THIS! The other piece I have been reminded about, is that people (Family, Friends, New Neighbors) really will help and genuinely want to help. That sometimes you just have to allow the blessings in and not be ashamed to accept them in whatever form they come in. I say that to say this! GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE TO SHOW AND PROVE! Take the risk! You'll never know what you're capable of until you go for it! The shits never gonna be easy...never. But that's the point isn't it?

 

~Signed the only Black person in Bye and Bye

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Aye! You is Kind, You is Smart, You is Important!

 

Now I am sure I am not the only one who looks at Sunday and says "OMG I don't wanna go to work tomorrow"right? I got to thinking yesterday as 7pm rolled around and the dread began to drape over me like an ill fitted lace-front, that I was gonna have to get up at 4 a.m. (yes it has gotten to the point where if I don't wake up at least 3 hours before work, I'm already late) and scramble to get myself together. But then I stepped out of my funk and began to ponder on purpose. What goals do I want to set for myself this week? What am I looking forward to for tomorrow? Truth is I don't dread going to work at all because fortunately I get to do what I love and enjoy. Now the other truth is I wouldn't mind being wealthy and traveling the world for a living either. I definitely live a  boujee bitch lifestyle in my head.  I started to get excited about starting up on my juicing again, and getting back on track with my nutritional plan. I'd been making progress a few weeks before and that was a highlight of the week. Now I am in no way to telling ya'll that you can't feel what you want to feel. Hell sometimes you need those moments where all you want to do is sit on the couch and complain. I am saying that you don't have to sit it for long periods of time. I am grateful to the village of family and friends who remind me to flip my thinking.  There is a purpose for you on this day! Glow up on your Monday and prosper for the week! I play around with my sister and Kayla often where we say in our best DJ Khaled voices " WE DA BEST!", "YOU GOLDEN!", "YOU POPPIN", "YOU AURA GOALS!".  What would your DJ Khaled phrase be?

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